ever get the feeling or even perfect realization that everything is slipping downhill all of a sudden?
that all at once ..you really see everything and everyone for who or what it really is,
and it leaves you..
almost isolated and confused on where to go,what to do,and who to trust next..
just to return to this very state in a few short years,
months,
weeks,
days
when i will actually learn from my experiences i'll never know.. but for now, i'll continue to subject myself to the fogged reality, only sometimes emerging from the diaphanous shade that keeps me from truely understanding, every second of my being. because this fog, this unclear life i choose to see and live, keeps me ignorant to all the hidden evils of my friends, family, and enemies that i experience, that i am secretly plagued by, everyday of my existence.